Monday, September 20, 2010

Fresh Air

After a long blogging hiatus I planned a new blog:http://loveandscissors.blogspot.com/   But it just didn't feel right.  No more running from my past.  My failures. My life.  I've come Undone is who I am and where I will stay.  Love and Scissors will continue but in another format...the dreaded food, craft and design blog. The blog I swore I would never write cause "yawn".  But yet I stalk those blogs *hangs head in shame* looking for cheap meals and cool DIY.  I can't be the only one.  So join me in my new home "the Wonderland".  In honor of it's very Alice in Wonderland secret doors, twists and turns. And like my life, I'm sure nothing on here will turn out as planned.Wonderland). Now on to new beginnings.

A little over a year ago my marriage which had long been hanging by a thread unraveled.  I planned to relocate my family to Washington but through a series of twists and turns we remained in Michigan.  Bought a house.  Adjusted.  Found love with an amazing man (Erik).  But the weight of my failures weighed heavy in the air.  Anxious for a fresh start I once again planned our great escape.  This time I successfully landed in Edmonds, Washington where wonderful friends welcomed us with open arms.

But the move has not been all rainbows and butterflies. I'm living in a house with 12 other people.  I'm raising 5 children alone: Amonte (18), Eli (14...Erik's son), Peyton (8), Cade (7) and Ava AKA Her Majesty (4).  I'm jobless, broke, without a car, lonely and totally unfamiliar with the area. I desperately miss my soul mate who was temporarily left behind. I'm counting the days till he arrives.  Reminding myself to breathe.  Finding my way.  And always on the verge of my next breakdown.

17 comments:

  1. Glad to see you are back to blogging Zoe. I know its gotta be hard now, but it HAS to get better from here. I will get better. :)

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  2. ZOE ! you REALLY REALLY TRUELY made my morning seeing you back. I have thought of you often and wondered how you were doing. I wish it had been and easier row for you... but it will get better. You are doing right by yourself and your monkeys.
    Major ((hugs))
    and hope the time till your mate gets back goes quickly!

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  3. Oh Zoe! I'm so glad you have a blog again! I can't wait to read more. I love your writings. Hang in there, and like LeeAnn said... it has to get better from here. You are strong and resilient and you can do it!

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  4. I am so so glad you are back! And I wish you lots of luck with this move! You will come out on top.......hang in there! And keep writing :)

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  5. Zoe! Great to have you back in the blog world!! Can't wait to read along on this enormous adventure of yours... I know your story will turn out AMAZING. Things will come together soon...
    how long 'til Erik joins you all?

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  6. You are back! Yay. You already know what I think. You are strong and tough and this will only make you stronger in character. Hang in there, things have to get better, right?

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  7. glad to see you're back and doing...better. i was a longtime reader and missed your ability to see humor in everyday life. :) hope things work out for you and look forward to reading more.

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  8. I will be departing the big dirty mitten on Oct 16th so I get to be with my baby girl on the 20th. I can't wait.

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  9. So glad to see you were finally able to "move on"! Best wishes to ALL of you and your new life in WA!!

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  10. zoe! i am totally pumped you are back on the blogging circuit! i'm so excited for your new start and i have faith that it will only get better from here for you! :)

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  11. yay! so happy you're blogging again my friend.

    i hope your man gets there soon + that you have a wonderful new life in washington!

    i know it will be amazing.

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  12. SO glad you are back and looking forward to reading again. HOpe things start looking up soon:)

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  13. Thank you all for your amazing support and encouragement!

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  14. YAY!! SO AWESOME!!

    You're a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for & a better person for taking it all in stride. I bet by NYE you'll be celebrating bigger & better than everyone in Washington!!

    Love ya, ~xoxo~

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  15. apparently i DID know you had this blog...haha! just read my comment from september. i just forgot.

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